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In front of me I can see the road going up in endless serpentines. Suddenly I have to assume, the two hours of climbing I had done previously haven’t been part of the real thing. It is still all in front

Just cycled up 1500meters, because I didn’t have a better idea what to do with this day. Now I am unable to move any further. I sit in a little shed full of fire wood which doesn’t protect me from the

How many days can you fit into 24hours? Morning view on a banana tree and a huge mountain in the background. Sleeping above the cows eating their cheese for dinner. Endless conversations over fresh bread

“Are you sure you want to go up there with the bike?” asks the first person coming down the mountain. And the second, and the next one too. “How do they mean: ‘if I am sure’?” I wonder. As I am in the

The closer the day comes the less I want to leave the more I need to leave. And I know I wouldn’t want to stay, even if I changed my mind. At 5 am I wake up somewhere between a dream and my alarm clock.

Some people are rich and some aren’t. Some have a six-pack some don’t. Some people just have good luck in life and some life with bad luck. Some people are happy and some aren’t. For many years I thought:

Are we done for good? Or are you about to come back into my life? How long do you need to miss something before you can let it back into your life? And when is it better to leave it in the past and move

Where have you been today, one year ago? From time to time, I like to go through the photos on my phone, pick the exact day one year ago just to see how far I have come since. There are phases. Phases

In which moments do you feel freedom the most? Love and Freedom. The more conditions are tied to each, the harder it becomes to feel it. While you can not force either of them to be there or show up or

The comfort of a dualistic world. Separating things into one or the other might offer comfort or a sense of control over the events of life happening to us. When things are seldom just one or the other.

Why am I writing, to who, what about and what for? That’s where I am at, again. Wondering which word will make it out of my head into these letters and which ones I better keep for myself. Who is going

“There is no getting on top of the list.” I have to remind myself almost once a day. Not sure anymore where I have read that sentence, but ever since it sticked. I am glad. Shows up to remind me, that

The books I read: “Love Life” by Matthew Hussey. “Instead of putting my in-the-moment feelings in charge, I always ask myself this question: Is this a thing, that once it’s over, makes me say, “I’am glad

Does education stop somewhere between your teens and late twenties? The question on how to educate kids is a recurrent one. With people who have kids themselves, with others working with kids, remembering

“I wish I knew, when I was 21!” I know it now and I see how much struggle and pain I could have spared myself if I could have only known a little earlier. “If I could have only known since the beginning.”

Before I let go for good, before I’ll watch you drive away with someone else, I just wanted to dedicate a few words to all these corners I had built with my own hands, the corners that felt like home in

The books I read: “Radical Acceptance” by Tara Brach. “We may spend our lives seeking something that is actually right inside us, and could be found if we would only stop and deepen our attention. But

“What about you, what do you do in life?” And now, do you know what to say? Are you shooting out one word and feel like that is really you? Did you like the answer you just gave? Are you really identifying

...and swimming in a lake for lunch. Tired and cold I get up. Everything hurts, I slept like a bird on a pole, woke up many times during the whole night, feeling like I would fall from the bench which

Late mornings I leave, it is a beautiful day, after a week of rain. Not knowing yet, that this would be an other historic day on my way I pedal into the sunny hills. I had been tempted to lurk around another