I more and more think there really is something to "Following your heart" and even if it doesn't work out in regard to whatever it is you "wanted", I think you can still feel a greater amount of peace knowing that you tried to pursue your passion than the kind of regrets that might haunt you the rest of your life if you didn't try and just accepted some kind of life that you dislike or worse.
I'm not completely 100% where I want to be yet in some respects, yet... I've been to some incredibly meaningful and beautiful places I never even knew existed and that most people don't know exist because I listened to my heart and I have a feeling it might even take me to some of the other places that I'd still like to see or experience before I'm done on this plane.
No amount of money can buy what I've experienced.
And, I didn't have to treat anyone like shit or screw anyone over to get here.
Not saying I'm perfect and I've never treated anyone poorly in my life, I think we all have... Just saying that oftentimes in this world people have a sort of ruthless "king of the hill" mentality and are willing to harm others to pretty extreme levels in order to get what they want. And, I've been able to sidestep that kind of mentality to a significant degree and find immeasurable beauty, enjoyment and fulfillment in life by trying to be "honorable" and doing what I think is right.
I could be wrong, but sometimes it feels like the Universe or God is rewarding me for doing my best to protect and retain my intuition, heart and love and to not let the hardness, callousness and cruelness of this world colden my concern and compassion too much.
I'm so happy and thankful to be here and hope to keep being here for a while, but even if something tragic happens... I'm still just so endlessly grateful that I got to be here as long as I did and learn some of these powerful wisdoms.
Even if I don't have a lot of money right now or "ever", I'm extremely rich in other ways... I have a pretty healthy body and mind and sense of morality and I have had a lot of time and good memories with my parents and other family and friends and I live in one of the most beautiful places in the world... Not to mention so many other positive things plus the stuff I'm not even ready to talk about yet.
I'll always be a bit troubled and sad about what happened to Amanda and all of the people and animals in this life who didn't get a "fair" hand so to speak, but... I've discovered that being grateful for the positive things in life and living my life is way better for everyone than to be depressed and rot away in my room dying a slow death, not really living much at all.
At least I'm alive again... I'm learning to be present and enjoy the moment and... There is great power in things like this.
K. I've said enough for today. Peace and much love. <3
