Hi everyone,
It's been awhile since I have been posting anything on this channel. Very unfortunate to be honest... all the better that I am returning to what gave me so much NEW inspiration this year: Publishing and reading on Hive.
The reasons for my absence are diverse. I would not have thought that I would put myself in a place where I needed to overcome so many obstacles in a short period of time. Therefore my mind was in a constant problem-solving state and I tended to be way more in my head then usual and somehow it blocked me from the stream of a creative flow in life.
For instance it can be described as that you have always wanted to write THAT book, but somehow you barely can't even start due to so many other important external forces that are willing to catch your attention. That's why you are procrastinating all over again and you're not getting anything done in the long run.
I have experienced that creativity itself is somehow kinda more fluroshing out of me when my mind is in a state of absolute peace and calmness.
This notion manifested itself last summer when I was in Montenegro and I didn't even thought of anything else than writing, making music and meeting new people. The return back to Germany in autumn was some kind of a shock when I was once confronted again with the cold and bureaucratic way of living in a western society. It was not really possible for me to maintain that light-hearted way of life that I purely engaged in during the last summer, while Germany was draining my energy. I don't want to blame the country for my personal struggle neither the people or german society in general. There was just the realization that I would get mentally and probably after quite some time physically sick if I would stay. That's why I had to move.
It was pretty weird, but somehow nearly every energetic sign literally forced me to leave the country. I don't want to get into much detail here. These are thoughts for another post <3
I am very happy to be back here in Montenegro and I am already FEELING that my mind is getting back into a more clear and peaceful state. My personal reasons for my decisions leaving germany are going to be illustrated by me here in the next weeks...
That's it for now. Feels good to be here again! Certainly!