I want to say I'm dumb and naive, but I'm not, pretty much everything that I know about Jamie I've known for a long time. I didn't have confirmations until recently, but I knew. But because there was a little doubt and she knew I loved her, she was able to keep all of it as her "secrets". I think she fucked my head up - not sure if it was intentional or not. Now I see things that she does to Johnny and I think - wow, she will easily do the same to you - instead of "she would never do that to me". I used to have tons of ego, pride, and confidence. I would see, and hear one thing, and she would tell me that it's something different. I wasn't sure what to believe. I don't know what happened that changed all that, but one day I realized that she was lying. So I started acting like I was believing what she said, but keeping my eyes and ears open. Then I remember the night that everything blew wide open and I knew for 100% sure that she was lying and she had people that would lie for her.
It was a typical night for us, we did some shards, but Pat was over this night. A few nights before, I almost caught them but she was able to make it seem like something else was happening. But this night, Johnny was asleep, and me and her were just hanging out. She said we were going to fuck after the shard shot, so I was trying to hit her as quickly as possible. Then Pat showed up, said he had $10 for shards. Then he wouldn't leave, but Jamie was of course flirting with him and saying she wasn't, but I didn't say anything. Pat again started the fire so he could take his shirt off, then Jamie needed me to go to the store, and I told her that I was going to go dumpster diving so she could "get rid of Pat". I got ready as usual, making everything seem normal, and went back to camp to grab my bike and then they watched me ride off down her trail. Down her trail aways it goes back to my camp, which has another less used trail with tall weeds to her camp. I went back to my camp to leave my bike, because it was loud, then I slowly went down the trail, and when I got close to her camp, I saw him standing there and her sitting in a chair, giving him head. So I continued watching, just to make sure I wasn't hallucinating or something. Then they got up, checked around them with the flashlight (and somehow didn't see me), and went inside Johnny's tent, where she was making the bed earlier that I thought was strange (I knew). Then in the missionary position they began to fuck, and she began to moan. This wasn't no hallucination, and I was only about 15 feet away. Then I kicked a rock that made some noise, and I could see from their silhouettes on the tent wall that they stopped and looked my direction. Fuck it.
"I thought you weren't fucking Patrick no more, guess that's a lie too." I said. She swore up and down that she wasn't. Patrick told me too. Ever since then I can't stand to see them in the same room, and I can't look at either one of them the same.