26.09.2023
Its a normal day just begin and nothing feel exception or exciting to do or thinking about her. I am just waiting for the time being exact 9.45am and get up for freshness and maintain dress code accordingly.
So, as it not the exact time but a little bit later of five minutes, i left my desk and go to wash room with neck tie.
After return to my desk, i can see her with peripheral view that she is already make entrace in the office. Just being strick and ready on my plan and egotism.
So, far nothing special happened today but one thing i have noticed that she walk away main door is faster and obviously not look back, but today i have paid discount on my plan and start to look at her a little.
The first ever confirm eyes cotract at her lunch time while she gonna wash her hand, that time she is looking just a like flash of her left eyes upon me but not directly, she is also going for wash her cup to enjoy tea. That time straight connect eyes contact and she gradually eyes down.
After that there are few more times she go in and out at the main door but can't contact eyes due to my busyness.
Today i also leave office at sharpe 5 o'clock but she didn't and stay office, but i didn't know how long she will be there.
(image from Internet for attraction)
27-09-2023
Today is the last office in this month, as usually i followed my daily work at my desk- at very first row and towards the main entrance door. Today i also leave up my desk exactly same time for freshness and official dress code maintaining.
And still found she is not coming and hope already she maiden while i was in the wash room. And that's true she is entered into office while i was in wash room.
Today i also looked at her few more times, but busy. After that while she out going from room the same patern looking is stiil found corner eyes to find and ensure about that i am watching her or not. One more thing is noticed that she is now walking slowly for passing the space between door and desk, other day she was faster than that as ignored her.
After a while, she is moved and walk of her desk row and it's just right side of me which can observe if i just turned my head right. I looked at her and she is slowly walking with downward eyes direction, before taken her left turn of desk row, up her face and confirm that i am looking or not, she is then look cool and keep clam that nothing is happened.
And lunch time while i finished my food, found her that place talking with some others and smiling. Just a little bit turn and focus on my face, me also looked at her and this focus is greater that other time. I just keep smiling downward my face, and feel shy and pray that she is not watching my cool smile after look at her. I don't know where she is following or not.
After my completing lunch, i didn't find her in office place, may be gone for lunch for outside or may be later come. But she didn't come and seems like disappear. May be early leave for vacation as onwards three consecutive holidays are now being strarted including thursday, friday and Saturday. Day before yesterday, i hear about she will try to manage leave in the lift while she is talking with her female colleague.
In between my inside i feel some empty and loneliness, as next three days i can't see her, she is not aside of me. Whatever best of luck for her.