I have been dreading getting worse with my health problems, I knew my knee was getting worse as the pain has been much worse. I was hoping it would be a long time before my knee deteriorated. I was going to do a little housework yesterday when I leaned forward putting weight on my lower leg, (I have done this before without much happening) Until yesterday, I felt as if something was ripping, I screamed out then had to sit down quickly before I fell down. When I looked at my knee its looked like a big bruise was forming, I knew I hadn't hit it with anything. I sat for a while hoping it would settle which it did and the bruise slowly faded. I stood up again to feel the exact same pain. That was me done for the day I couldn't chance walking on it anymore.
My Doctor has always told me to try and keep using your leg or I will lose it, meaning I won't be able to walk anymore I will have to use a wheelchair. I refuse to use one, its the one thing I have really been dreading.
I got up this morning making it downstairs slowly thankfully no pain, I got down the stairs then collapsed on the sofa still no pain. I thought maybe I had put my foot down wrongly and twisted my knee and with me resting it had solved the problem, I should have kept my mouth shut, Hubby got home from work, he had his shower then started on food, I asked if he needed a hand or could I go have a shower, he said go for a shower. I stepped up from the sitting position, as soon as I was standing the pain was back. I screamed out again to be told to sit back down and have a shower before bed saving me from using the stairs twice. I am to scared to stand up now. When I do walk I am going to have to walk on my heel and not put my toes down as when I go forward that's when it really hurts.
This all stems back to me jumping over a wall landing on my knee when I was 14, I have had 9 operations I can't have anymore as I now have nerve damage down the right side of my knee, I also have Osteoarthritis. This new damage won't be able to have anymore operations plus my knee gets worse after them. I have a screw in my knee from an ACL Anterior Cruciate Ligament operation that I had to have re-done 20 years after the first one. When they opened my knee they found the operation that was done 20 years ago was in the wrong place, I have been walking on a crooked leg for 20 years, they had to remove the screw then repair the knee to add another screw.
The above X-ray is my knee, after the second ACL operation. The muscle in my leg has gone, my leg is now painfully thin. I keep it covered all the time as hate looking at it. I have asked for the knee to be removed by removing the bottom half of my leg but with me having this injury and pain for a long time I still could get Phantom Pain, there is no help for this as with the leg gone the pain is in your head. They can't give you pain medication to help. I have to keep the leg and try and find away around this new pain that doesn't involve a wheelchair.
I am not looking forward to climbing the stairs for bed. I may have to ask my Doctor for a stronger brace for my knee, I will do anything to keep me upwards and not having to rely on a wheelchair.
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