I just want to share some slice of my life to you.
My life has been tough. Being a mother is not a joke so If you think you are not ready to be one, don't rush it. Enjoy your life till you get tired, be successful then decide if you are ready to be a mother.
Pregnancy
My first trimester of pregnancy, I felt nauseous, dizzy, tummy cramps and I lost my appetite. I lost 3 kgs. when I'm in 3rd month. I can't sleep very well because my headache is killin me.
I went to my Doctor for a check up every month for the safety of baby. A ton of money we spent just on that. I needed to eat proper foods and take medicines for pregnant to make sure the baby is healthy. I don't really like taking medicines, I always throw up when I do ever since im in kid's age. But I tried hard to swallow the meds.
My last pregnancy, my baby is breech at 7months. I remember how worried I am that time. I did a lot of exercises to make my baby turn around into right position. I watched videos in you tube, searched about home remedy for breech position. I tried my best until it FINALLY turned around at 8months. I thought I'm gonna give birth C-section! Thank God.
Her 3d Ultrasound
At 8months pregnancy, I started to feel so uncomfortable. I downloaded preggy apps on my phone to communicate with other mommies to fill my confusions. I thought I was about to give birth early to a premature baby because of the pain almost everyday. I went to my doctor 3 times a week because I felt like giving birth already those days. All the test was completely fine, nothing wrong in body or my pregnancy.
She was actively moving to the point that I pee every 10minutes. She seemed like want to see the outside world already, she was very excited. Lol.
I had to wait until 37weeks at least to induce my labor because of the non stop pain. I had to get bedrest for a month because my doctor told me that baby might come out early because she's laying very low already.
The very first day of week 37th, I went to my OB-GYNE to induce my labor already. She did a membrane sweep and started IV infusion of oxytocin(this drug is a synthetic form of the hormone that your body produces naturally during spontaneous labor.)
Right when they put the oxytocin in me, I started to constract. It was so painful! I was crying so hard.
Then 3 hours later, my water broke! It started to get painful even more to the point I hallucinated, I thought my baby was in my tummy already. I gave birth an hour after my water bag broke.
I passed the fuck out!
I slept right away when the baby was out.
Born March 4th 2017
~That is just the pregnancy part, it gets hard even more...
Being a Mother
~ It is true that "mother's love is the best!"
When the baby is awake, you have to be awake aswell. You have to watch her all the time she's awake. Feed her, clean her, check her body temperature and etc.
When I gave birth, a few days after, I can wash her clothes, dishes and even clean house already. Not because I can, it's because I have to. I am still in pain but my care and my love for my baby is more than i love myself. No one is here with me except my husband. He had to work for our financial needs so I have to do the house chores and the babysit.
My baby is now 6months old. We are having a hard time to our expenses at home now. But our baby keeps us happy behind the struggles we are experiencing. Her sweet laugh melts our heart. Inspires us to do things we should for her future.
I think it's funny while I'm writing this, telling how hard being a mom is, I'm literally holding her right now. I'm rocking her to put her to sleep while writing(lol).
Yeah, my life of being a mom is just starting. I don't know what kind of struggle will come as the time pass by. Right now, I even hold her while cooking and eating. Do other house chores when she's sleeping. I can't get a full rest. I am not complaining, I love what I'm doing for my baby. She makes me happy.
But my point of this is, for those ladies who wants to get pregnant, please make sure you are completely ready being a mom before you do it. It's not easy. You should enjoy independence and be successful first.
Some recent photos of my baby Aerith
