I came across this caption. I have always had it on my mobile, but really have not applied any meaning to it. Saw it again today and something clicked. I remembered something someone said to me a few days ago.
She said, I quote;
If you are not a writer, you are not organized and I can't take you seriously. I believe everyone needs to write down their plans, goals, have a dairy, jotter, and most take down notes to be able to remember and be organized.
Well, I looked at her and just said, thats not my kind of person.
I am this type of person with a very good retentive memory. It is good, but good to a fault. As long as I pay attention, I will never forget the slightest details. I can quote someone, same word, same time, same minute, what the person wore, the place, even what the atmosphere looked like as far as 20yrs back.
That was actually a problem cause I would not write, take notes or keep a diary. It made me a lazy student in school, because as long as I pay attention in class and I listen to all my teacher(and I would not always be attentive 100%), I would not read, do research or any homework. So you could see what kind of student I was.
The only thing I could read was novels.
It became an issue for me, as I was trying to change who I was to become what others are. I thought it was a bad thing and it made me feel inferior among my peers. Gradually, I began to loose my self confidence, and instead of paying attention, I would focus on writing. My grades started going down.
I wanted to balance both, but it was harder day my day. My brain would just not retain what I read for long, as I wouldn't pay much attention as I read. I would go ask questions and my brain process all the questions together to give summary and conclusion. And that was what I would use for my exams.
Time after time, I told myself, there is no way you can be a lawyer, medical doctor, or any of those professions. I needed mainly practical teaching, practical application.
Finally, I discovered that I am just me, my brain works the way I was wired to. I decided to embrace me and use what works for me. I felt better, I became confident, I improved and took advantage of my good memory and started putting it to use. So far, it has help me.
I always make a joke; Do not carelessly say things you do not want anyone to remember in front of me...cos my memory will never forget.
Just to buttress my point;
Do not try to change you. We are always not perfect. We have our weak side. But everyone has a strong side, take advantage of the strong and make the best of you out of it.
I lost two class in high school, cause my parents were not happy with my grades. They took me two years back. (Yes, that was because my mum was teacher and she felt I was not doing well enough for my class). Not because I was not intelligent enough, but because I was trying to be like other people. At that time, I felt I was not normal, I thought it was weird and a bad way to learn.