I've been meaning to write this post for quite some time now. I've been Homeless for seven months and I've learned a lot.
Homelessness is not a joke, your physiologically ruined in life. Prior to today, I believe people truly had great resource to get out of debt, depression, homelessness and the hopeless feeling that it creates. The advocates don't care about the homeless, they care that you are Homeless, because they care about their own jobs working with the homeless. They don't work together to discuss how to help the homeless, rather they get together to discuss how to maintain and keep the homeless in debt. The homeless shelter advocates don't want you doing anything else for yourself like getting your own business going, because they want your income from punching a clock. They take your GRH government funds for their own paychecks, and that money used to be for rent only, $891 dollars from all 60+ people in a homeless shelter. Now raised to $1300 dollars.
While rent stays at $891, where does the other $409 dollars go? It doesn't go to the homeless even though our signatures at the "x" create that income. But, that extra income goes to the pockets off the advocates. They should be putting that money away for the homeless people in their shelter. They claim they are a non-profit organization but this is far from the truth. 501c's are claiming just like a church, and places like these are far from a church. Especially a real church. They're looking for more money and funds from the people that come to their homeless shelters. Give us your poor, hungry and hurt people and we'll give them a bed with seven other people in your room who also don't care about the homeless. They are Homeless. They are institutionalized. They are people with hurts and pains. And, they are people that are dying.
The homeless don't care about their own homeless population let alone the fact that they are homeless themselves. There is so many self-centered people in a shelter that you end up dealing with other people and their drama. From heroine addicts to diseases, to simple problematic minds of people that just don't care about anybody but themselves. You live around selfishness and deceit. Nobody cares about anybody when you are homeless.
Thanks for the income says the advocates, and screw you say the other homeless. Your stuff can be robbed and you can be hurting, and people still have no respect for others. Your family and friends aren't there for you. In fact, everyone blames you for being homeless instead of the economics or the environments you've been in. And if you're on the streets, no one wants to give you a hand up or a place to eat. Though they will, sometimes, you can feel the tensions in the air surrounding your homelessness. And the doctors have a new symptom to medicate called chronic homelessness. And, like depression, instead of helping the sadness and pain of being or becoming homeless, instead of fighting for your income, instead of bringing people to court for leaving you in imminent danger, they want to place you on pills for depression and anxiety.
sinkI'm not depressed, I'm happy, I'm on Rollerblades or writing, I'm free. I don't believe in depression and I won't take their pills. Being over medicated hurt me in my previous years so I'm done taking them. I recommend to everyone to try going natural and stop taking psych meds for mental health where for myself it just turned me into a zombie. I lost my own character and self esteem by taking medications and it cost me a lot. I was being given medication that made me sleepy in the day and I had to drive back home after work. I ended up speeding to get home faster because I couldn't handle this feeling. My belief is that I'd be fine had I never taken these medications. I'd be just like anyone else. It sabotaged my life. Wouldn't you feel the same way?
I'll just explain what I've been going through here: The advocates have favorites and will let you know. You get the blame for anything and everything that they can while other people get away with selling drugs, doing drugs and still have a place to sleep. I've been written up for violating the rules by having juice, yet other people get away with having beverages on the window sill with no write up. I've had my camel coupons given away to other house mates and it was done right in front of me. My mail that was, so someone sure didn't like me right off the bat. You wake up from getting your bed kicked or punched from another house mate who has no respect for your sleep. You're sick and hurting even, and no one cares. They shake your bed and wake you up all the time. You wake up to use the bathroom and there's poop on the walls, in the trash or even on the sink. It's certainly not a sanitary place to live. I get sick and tired of being one of the only ones that care about the cleanliness of the place where people are getting sick. You miss making your own food, grocery shopping and getting to kick off it shoes and relax. Because you have to keep your shoes on all times you get sore feet and sick of wearing shoes at all times. At any rate, there is a lot more that can be done for the homeless.
The advocates, families and other residents of homeless shelters can and should campaign better together. People should bridge the gap between homelessness and housing for the homeless people. The (GRH)or Group Residential Housing income should not be used for the paychecks of people who work for a non-profit organization, and it should be going to the people who are homeless, and not the people that are working in these homeless shelters. If the people want more money who run homeless shelters, it shouldn't come from the signatures of the homeless for the funding that they create with their signatures. It should come straight from our governments willingness to accept the fact that economically we are hurting from the economics that have been given to us by our very own government.
The fact is this; they love the homeless, institutionalized the homeless and create homelessness because it seems to be the only way they will provide their GRH funds, is if you're in a shelter. But, if you're truly living on the streets, no one remembers your name, or will help you get out of living homeless lifestyles. You can't get funding without an address and in other words you don't matter to the government if you aren't willing to sacrifice the income they will provide you, as long as it's not going directly to you. And, the homeless do not get those funds at all, yet it comes out of your social security when you get older and have to apply for social security. So you never touch that income and yet you will end up paying for it in the end. They will also garnish wages enough to cover the debt created by them for their own pockets. You never see it, but you owe for it. How does that make sense?
Bottom line is that it hurts to be homeless, and it obviously hurts the homeless and not the advocates. It hurts them for the rest of their lives. I still wonder how I'm going to recover from this, and I'm trying to work at every chance I get.