Most times I sit to think about my life, I often end up noticing that probably 45% of my lifestyle is influenced by friends and people around me.
Online betting is one of the “bad and good” habits I learned from a friend. Betting is a very addictive habit that I would never encourage anyone to engage in. One of the days I was very broke, I saw a message about a giveaway in one of the telegram channels I'm a member of. One of my friends who had won a bet and was very happy and decided to be extravagant or should I say benevolent, decided to organize a giveaway on the channel.
My friend dropped a message and asked for the first five people to react to his message to get a cash prize. I was quick to see the message and reacted quickly. I was the second to react and got the cash prize which I used to serve my urgent and pressing need at that moment. Later on in the day, after he had sent the money, I sent him a private message asking him to teach me how to make money. He sincerely told me he engages in the online bet and he wins “sometimes”.
I didn't think twice, I felt like betting sites were places to get free money. I never knew it's also a place where one can get heart failure. I embarked on a “earn-to-bet” mission. I began to bet like never before. I was always losing but I never realized I had lost much.
One of my worst days was on 21st August. On that day, I withdrew all my savings from Hive. I had like 17HBD and placed all on a bet. I lost all the money and I was so depressed. That was the moment I needed music the most. I almost died that night because of that 17HBD. It took me many days to make that and I would lose it all in one day. I slept that night playing this particular song, “Don't Worry, Be Happy” by Bobby McFerrin.
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That was the day, the moment I needed music the most because I was in the state of the worst depression.
Music served as medicine, curing my mind and soul from feelings of failure disappointment and depression.
I felt like my friend who told me about online betting was my enemy but I remembered when he said he wins “sometimes”. This means one day for your win and many days for losses. As I said earlier, betting is very addictive because that feeling of doubling your money by just predicting the results of games is unstoppable. I didn't give up even after that great loss, though I gave it some time. A few weeks after I had earned some cash, I returned to my “earn-to-bet” mission again. This time around, I was the lucky one. I staked approximately 10 dollars and won 70 dollars. That was one of my happiest days ever. I felt like I had recovered from all my losses since my first day of betting.
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That day, I also felt like I needed music but this time around music of joy not for a depressed person. That was another moment I needed music the most because the joy I had was overflowing and I had to sing them out. I had to play and sing till my siblings asked me what was giving me such joy.
Music is good. Music is everything and can do anything, it's life and can heal a dying soul.
Thanks for reading.
This is my entry for the #afro-inleo initiative.