Whom have I in heaven but you? I desire you more than anything on earth. My health may fail, and my spirit may grow weak, but God remains the strength of my heart; he is mine forever.
Psalms 73:25-26 NLT
Today marks the tenth year since I followed the Lord.
12-12-12 (December 12, 2012), is my Spiritual birthday and it's so funny how the numbers aligned. It would be easier to remember it that way, also in December 12, our barrio/village had an annual celebratory event so I never forgot this day.
Christianity wasn't the easier road for me because I didn't know a lot of the risks but life can be so funny sometimes, and I'm still here on this narrow road.
I was seventeen when I realized that the Lord is calling me, half of the members of our family went to a born-again church for years and I knew they have become better. My mother and my sisters seemed to be treating me so well unlike before that I felt like I don't belong to our family. It was after a year that I decided I would follow Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior. It has been ten years since but life wasn't really that easy, how I wish I really been serious for the Lord before.
On that day I prayed to Jesus and lay my life for Him and since then I've seen a lot of things on the Spiritual side. I realized that there are really things in the dark that attacks people that made them feel worse and do bad things. And I only read my Bible because of my fear of nightmares then, I know that scary movies had a lot of these things that people don't know are attacking them.
A year later after my conversion, my father left us and our family are in shambles, I even drop out of school then because I can't take it anymore.
But even so, the Lord changed our family for the better although we don't stay with our father now but it is still great we have two different houses. Life changed a bit and seems like my depression help me to write better too.
I learned a few things in this ten years of being with the Lord and these are some of those,
• Take seriously your time with the Lord (Bible reading and Journaling/Devotional)
• Love the Lord first even before youself and other things
• Pray about everything that comes to mind
• Accept your lot in life
I went to a disciple-making ministry/church before but as a very introverted person I can't function well in a highly extroverted community that in time I forgot my ownself. I thought believers should be fun and engaging as always because they say Jesus is the same but it doesn't work for me, I know there will be another work that God has for me than being extroverted.
I decided to let the Lord Jesus guide me, so I left that church and never returned.
It was four years ago since then and this quietness is the best experience I ever had. I was a thinker and introverted that I prefer reading the Bible instead of talking in a group but I think my bible study leader is not really happy with it. I don't want to see her anymore though.
I learned things too that the church never teach me, mostly about the Apocalypse and the ENDTIMES. I prayed to see people that are like me, that will make me love myself better. I found them three years ago on instagram, I realized that there were people who take heed of the Word than being so church(y). People make better friends if you all think the same.
The Church comprise of different parts of the body than being similar to each other yet never the Head, for the head is Christ.
The Lord has given me different gifts and it needs to be tested first before it shall be of use in the Kingdom. Learning is a process and oneday I want to learn to love Jesus more through other people's lives.
I wanted to write a Christian book in my tenth year of being a Christian believer but it never happened so I leave this one here. Feel free to ask me in the comments. I'll try to answer them all.
Today's Happenings
I visited a neighbor's house today. I thought they got cake but they had ice cream instead. It is our barrio/village's fiesta but our neighor celebrated birthday so I went there and here are some sneak peak of their house and decorations. They had the oldest modern house around, I never expected it was so cozy inside.
