A Bumpy ride

You honor me, I said to one of my mentors in my professional life trajectory, when after I finished a working day on human talent management, days ago, he told me "A good leader inspires" thanks for sharing your experience, Jani, I replied to him, "But remember that you have been part of my best examples".

The problem is not the mentor, it's me

Life is a projection without action, undoubtedly one learns from a good example, it is we who have the problem when we believe more in the teacher, who we follow blindly and stop believing in us, there lies the answer, about the results of your life.

Undoubtedly, this is easier said than done

Every day I look for a reason, a single one that is enough to inspire me and I use all the resources, and tools I have at my disposal to face the situation I am facing, to know and identify the reason.

When things do not go as I want, without wasting time, I adjust to the change, and if it is not convenient I take it out of my life. I always tell myself "I have life and that is enough" to get rid of what is holding me back in my progress.

Inside me, deep inside, I always make a trade-off between being good or not very good people, in the eyes of others, so I ask myself and... What do I get with the environment, if I am a good person

If sometimes inside I'm overwhelmed by frustration, anger, resentment, aggression, and submission, that practically VOID me, maybe because of the habit of being a good person, and behind it hides a very dark shadow depending on the surrounding reality.

I say this because I have learned that from the mistakes I have made the first time, I always illustrate myself, and if I do not learn from those mistakes is because I am playing the role of a fool "by the way, I'm not stupid at all".

There is nothing more seductive than a martyr, a (potential victim) for a savior who looks for him to feel good people... Ha, ha, ha, those that swarm like bees to honey... When I detect them, I run away from there, as fast as possible.

When I am tempted to repeat what I learned from my mistakes in order to survive, I negotiate with myself to free, modify, liberate and change the time I invest in my doubt and I contribute wood to the fire to make a bonfire because at once I get off the wooden cross and automatically "stop suffering with that parasitic energy, without autonomy, that implodes and annihilates me ", to give protection to my survival and that the suffering that can wear me out, consume me, taking me to spaces where human ruin is fed back, never progresses.

I've also learned that if you play the fool role, whoever catches you along the way does what they know how to do, "take over your life and manipulate you like a fool at their whim", Why, because they take ownership, what you give them too much of.

Fortunately, I have harvested (learned good habits) and try as much as possible not to confuse myself with "not seeing beyond my nose" nonsense; when one doesn't work for me, I change it for another. I am very persevering, disciplined and that helps me.

Today I know why? Others do not celebrate my achievements, guess? ... Because I left aside the "complex of being an ambulance" and stopped being the coffee maker with the coffee ready and being there for everyone, I exhausted myself to help, help, order, the lives of those around me, of the beings in whom I trust and that many times are far away from what I think and feel; this new attitude well-learned habit) is liberating. And best of all, is that my good energy will no longer leave me. End of a lesson learned and overcome in this bumpy journey of mine towards my growth as a human.