Lately, my mind has become very difficult. If there is any reason to be upset, I can't cry, only the wave of tears gets stuck up to my throat.
This time after returning home from Eid, my mind was feeling very bad. Due to leaving my parents' company What else happens to girls naturally.
When my mother said on the phone the night after leaving my father's house, your father is crying a lot. That's why the house has become so empty after you left.
Hearing this, my mind began to flutter in great pain. But no tears came out of his eyes. Why ???
When my mother-in-law (my own mother-in-law did not survive) when my mother-in-law left the house, she turned her loving hand on her head and said in a tearful voice, "Go, mother - I don't know if we will ever see each other again." (Because he is very ill and a very old man.) Hearing this, his heart twisted, but the tears did not come out of his eyes.
Why ???
This time on the day of Eid, after the Eid prayers, visiting the grave, I see the father of the children, the elder mother-in-law is sitting next to the mother (her own mother and father are not alive), crying like a child, and her eyes are red. This scene is very painful for me. Because I can't bear any of his suffering. My heart ached when I saw the scene but I did not shed tears.
Why ???
I intended to eat at my father's house for several days this Eid. With us (meaning wife, with the child) until the Eid holidays, the children's father returns to his workplace for the office. So who sees the children crying when he returns? The children want to return home with their father. So their cries. Meanwhile, the father of the children also left us crying. Such a small temporary separation. But this is the situation of crying. I know how the mind got up thinking how much a human mind can do if it is so soft.
Just then an incident came to my mind. And that incident shattered my heart.
Just 4/5 years ago, one of my cousins' sister's husband died of a heart attack. They have two children. 3/4
A boy of the year and a boy of 5 months. And sister's age is only 20/22 years now. She is a widow at this age. I heard that the two children go out of the house gate again and again to see and find their father. And who is their mother or mother, call the father. Why the father has not come yet ??
What will the mother of the children answer to these questions?
I know thousands of things are happening around us all the time.
Thousands of such events near or far may hurt my mind at every moment. So I understand I can't cry anymore.