Sharing my thoughts
Hello guys!
I wrote this piece of writing when i was breaking down, so i thought of sharing this as i am experiencing the same situation again. I always heard and read people describing how bothersome it is to have a mental breakdown and exams side by side like you can't cry in peace as you can't waste your limited time for exam preparation, now i understand them.
If anyone of you is a sensitive person from the start you would get me. Like i am an observant person, and i notice all the things people ignore. that's why it hurts more. On the other hand, i am someone who gives her all to the people i love but in return either get betrayed, misunderstood, or just people stomping on my heart like it's a footpath.
Well, i think some relationships are not worth all the struggles but it's okay to feel sad and having flashbacks of all the good times but at the same time we shouldn't forget how those same people insulted us, backstabbed us and back bite about us like we are their enemies not so call "best friends ".
Ending a friendship can be the most difficult thing to do, but you can't stay at a place where you get treated like trash.
I am a very forgiving person, so people take it for granted, but when i finally decide to speak for myself, people get offended and tell me it's all my fault.
I wrote this having tears in my eyes, but now i am learning that my mental peace and health are more important to me, so i decided to part my ways. Even if i have to roam alone in my university, I will because at least there will be no one to judge me, or i won't have to pretend anymore.
It's strange how beautifully things begin and how tragically they end.
I wont lie i was so happy with them for most of the part but as time started passing i realised changings in their behaviour and how intentionally they do certain things to make me feel bad and i would just cry myself to sleep.
Their behaviour made me think there must be something wrong with me i doubted myself alot but at the end i knew its them.
By the way this was my very first piece of writing and i wrote it for my long lost best friend. We were best friends till 10th grade. She was and is so close to my heart.
We lost contact for 5 years because of a misunderstanding. I missed her all these years. I tried to have her number but couldn't then finally i got her number and messaged her. Her and i talked about everything and cleared our misunderstandings. Now we both are in different cities stuck with our own busy lives but i have promised her to meet her once i get back in the town.
I wrote this for her when i couldn't reach to her and almost all of my writing belongs to her but she doesn't know it. She haven't read any.
Here it is...
At the end i would just say people come and go in your life but make sure to never lose yourself. Sometimes you lose people because you overlove them.
I hope you all witness all the happiness of this world.
Till next time bye!