Believe me when I say this year has been the fastest year of my life. 10 months feels like 10 weeks cos tell me why the days are running by so fast. I know for sure I’m not the only one who feels this way. If you’re yet to feel it, just take a look at your goals for the year and come back.
Looking back to the last 10 months, I would say a lot has happened. One thing about each and every year that has passed by for the last 3 or 4 years of my life is that every year has had a similar pattern. So, the first and second quarters of the year are for putting in the work , the third quarter is for suffering and seeing shege and the last quarter is where I always say God came through for me. It’s more like every year, it’s the same pattern but this year, there’s been a turn of events.
I call this year my quiet year because I’ve been quiet in so many ways. I’m someone who’s always on the move and up to something but at some point in the year, I just decided to give myself a break , put in the work and just let things play out. I’ve had to make so many hard choices in my life but the ones I’ve had to make this year are decisions that I needed to make and it was about time. One of the hardest choices I’ve had to make this years is giving up on something I worked so hard for.
A while back, I started working on a project with a group of people but it turns out I was actually doing all the work. I really didn’t mind because I was the brains behind it and I knew what I wanted so I kept on working and working. After everything was said and done, I had to give up one everything and take a different route. It was hard and frustrating and I kept asking myself why this was happening. I’m not one to fail at anything and being the competitive person that I am, this came as a huge blow for me. But, as entrepreneurs, we always tell ourselves to know when to give up and I think this was Gods way of giving me a different perspective to things. Maybe, I might have felt extra confident in my abilities and this sure did get me to see things in a different light.
Regardless, our loses can sometimes turn out to be our biggest wins. I received so many offers from different people to work on their projects which made me feel my efforts were being seen and acknowledged in a way. I looked through all the requests and opted in for the best and the one I felt would help me the most and I would say, it wasn’t that bad after all.
Another tough decision I had to make this year was to put myself first and learn to let things be. Being the over-thinker that I am, I worry so much about everything. Even the tiniest of things would be my greatest worry and at some point it just had to stop. I was surprised by how I was always stressed out about everything which was very bad for me. So, I decided to learn to let things be because life isn’t even meant to be this hard. This decision if mine led me to realize how much I haven’t taken care of myself because I had been so consumed in my own thoughts. It wasn’t easy at first but would say it’s still a work in progress and I’ve had so much peace and clarity in my life so far.
For someone with a life like mine, these aren’t really any tough decisions but at this point in my life, they are and were a bit tough for me. But they say change doesn’t happen if one is not ready to give change the chance. So, here we have it! I still look forward to having a huge turn up in the next two months because I trust God to come through for me.
ps: another tough decision I had to make today is having to write this post all over again after it got deleted from my drafts:(
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