God wants his children to blessed and be successful in life.
It is not that God don't want you to be blessed. He always does. It is just that your hands are always too busy. You are too focus on the past that you can hardly see the present.
You hold on too much to the past. Your hands are all tied to the past that you have no hand left to receive the blessings that God has given you already in the present.
This is the reason you feel overstressed. Leave the past and focus on God, and you healing will turn your stress to abundant blessings.