Hi again everyone!! How are you? It's been a while. Many happenings has passed.
Pain. Joy. Hardship. Hope. Love. Death.
Death is inevitable.
As I dwell into life I haven't still fully grasp the meaning of hope and death. Everyone has different opinions about it. But as I look at it, experiences is what makes as put a life on those words. Death is painful, but we need to live with the pain to move forward with life.
I've experienced death with the one that I love the most, my dad. He died on feb 28 2024. I was asked to do a eulogy-a first time experience and I can't believed I get to do a speech about those memories while my dad is lying in the coffin, cold and not breathing. A heartbreaking time for me and my family.
So here goes: My dad was the best dad that God could give. He was my superman, batman, Wonder Woman, Flash and Green Lantern. He was once a DC Super Heroes and still a DC superheroes for me. Haha kidding! But he's an overall a total package. My dad is the tank in our family. Eventhough he was not here in this world anymore, he was still a tank in our family. If we're sick my dad will do everything to buy us medicine and when he was sick, he didn't complained from the pain and still be strong for us because I know he didn't want to be a burden to us and those who help us through difficult times. My daddy was a good person, people makes mistake but that's just us. We seek forgiveness to the lord and until his last breath he's still silent eventhough I know he's going through heartbreak and betrayal from the ones he loved.
Daddy I'm sorry for all the things I did, those times we argue about anything but still you cared and loved me despite that. He's my ultimate friend. We have different opinions in life. But now he's with God.
We have those ups and downs but thats just life. And we are very blessed to have experienced many sufferings and hardships because that's what shape us to be brave the next time we experience those things and God is with us always so dont be afraid.
He was a fighter for those times and still a fighter until his last breath. My memories with my dad will live forever and I will cherish until my last breath.
Death is not the end of an era of life, its the beginning of the true life with God.
My dad's death is not a loss for us. It's a win for us and a win for daddy also because he is with god and no sufferings in life will and can he encounter anymore. He was not perfect since no man is perfect but was a perfect and the best daddy for us.
This I promise you daddy, I will do everything to fulfil your dream for our family and for us. Eventhough you can't see us physically when we graduate soon but I know you're happy with what we achieved. I know you are proud of us. And I am proud of you too for fighting those painful and very difficult times, for still thinking of surviving because of us.
Daddy I know you can hear us dont worry about us and go on with the journey to a true life with god. I know until ur last breath you still worry with us. I know. That's life. But it's okay and we're okay. We can be strong and still live life, since naa ta sa gugma sa ginoo og dili ta nya pasagdan. And also those people who help us in those difficult times, me and daddy appreciated you guys. Thank you so much.
For everything.
Death in each individuality can make them stronger, or others can make them much more softer, and that's not a bad thing.
I love you daddy. Always and Forever. I will miss you.
~missbeauté