There is no straight path…

Currently, the whole world is learning to live with itself, to really know its inner self, to deal with it and its environment, to discover its strengths outside the comfort zone that everyday life and routine gives us, as well as its weaknesses as a human being, and this is what I'm talking about in this post, is what drives me to reinvent myself and to understand that sometimes, yes, I need help.

Especially when many times, I am paralyzed, but an inner voice tells me that everything is NOT bad, that it can go well and better, that I understand that there is no straight path but that I put my skills into action so that I can see the beautiful landscapes of my surroundings.

When the year comes to this current month, August 2023, and with it, the feeling that the year is flying becomes more than a suspicion, it's a good time to review my plans, projects, goals and expectations and stop being afraid to face my fear.

Just realizing this, has paralyzed me again, I think I'm in neutral like the speeds of the synchronic box of my car, and I've felt afraid, as you read it, because maybe I've been wrong, August has not been an easy month, and I've had to test my skills, those learned during my life journey, skills whose accompaniment had never been so necessary as now, to check how I'm going and make the necessary adjustments.

But what are those skills? to be able to adjust to the initial plan.

I understand that when the path is not made to measure for me, it's time to draw the first lines, walk the first steps, sometimes winding, sometimes steep. Certainly, some roads can be lonely. But every now, and then I find that there are others (people) like me, walking in the same direction... and I think: “Maybe he knows a lighter path..., “Maybe he has a map...”, “Maybe he can help me ease the burden or at least we could talk...”.

We are just human beings in need of accompanying each other on the adventure of living.

It is not the same to feel “good” as to feel cheerful, hopeful or relieved... It is not the same to feel “bad” as to feel humiliated, disappointed or angry. By this what I mean is that the main task is to look inward, re-meet, connect and finally talk about how I am feeling in my inner waters.

Fears, prejudices and even the self-imposition of independence often play against me.

It's time to accept and respect, to stop along the way before you start doing it. A space to share what I have learned traveling this path while I have built a solid experience.

Is it a space of strategies that work? Yes, but it's more than that, it's a new stage or a new life, to flourish. Because it's my only calling. My inner voice guides me, I listen to it, and I act in coherence with it. You can feel the tranquility and creativity, and also the strength of the actions that take me along the way. There is natural physical tiredness due to the amount of activity, in these 8 months, but there is no exhaustion, no wear and tear.

I just need to listen to myself with warmth and empathy.

Those of us who have lived through the pain of exclusion know that not always being different is a source of pride and fascination. And we also know the long road I've had to travel so that these experiences don't define me in adult life. Because as Bessel van del Kolk says “The body keeps score".

In the photo, paths from my gaze, on the second floor of the family country house in the Andean mountain range.