UPDATE- I finally got a court date, WHOOO-HOO.......Supreme Court here I come in May, Legal Aid and the lawyers I have spoken to can see that I have a chance. I am not giving up, I have come way to far to quit, and thankfully I have found a lawyer who sees that, and is on my side. I am heading on a long road trip to the coast with my son for court in Victoria....I am HOPEFUL, and I know that I have a chance, so this is one of the most important things I will do. I just pray that the courts will also realize that I deserve a new trial to fight for my little girl. Of course while I am there, I am hoping that I might have access....a hug would mean the world, to tell her that mommy is still trying.
So thank you to the people who have chosen to read my story, my life, and to be supportive, this means the world to me, its hard to find anyone to understand what I am going thru, and yet to be understanding and respectful....I am grateful for the people I have found that are routing for me. I wish all of you that are as well going through similar things that you will never quit fighting for your children, they are our life, irreplaceable. Weather we have missed out on time that we can no longer get back, rather then dwelling on that fact (something I have done alot) it only brings pain each day, take care of yourself, continue counselling, or therapy, groups, whatever makes you feel good about you. Focus on the day as it comes, and reflect on the past so that the same choices dont get repeated! 
I am scared, worried, and yet inside myself, I have told myself not to get all anxious, like what if's.....just say that this first baby step I won, and that this IS a chance for me to get heard again....I will update as I can, but for now I really want to thank the people who have helped me, and cared, and shared of course.....I am in this for myself, as well as supporting others if they need it, and I am NOT QUITTING, EVER! ! This is why I carry my blue butterfly wherever I go---to make a wish, to carry my one wish! 