I lost my hope to fight in life over and over again. I don't have anything. I am all nothing. I only have is just myself. All I want is just to have a happy life. Maybe happiness and love was really not for me.
I'm just a human too to feel tiredness and now my heart broke into pieces. It's really hard for me to be worthless. I'm weak and worthless.
Anyone can leave me. I don't have friends. No one can ask me “Are you okey?”. Look how unlucky I am. Dreams? No, Maybe my dreams was really not for me. I’ve already heard a lot of words from the other people. I'm so tired to fight. I'm so hopeless. I'm full of shame.
Maybe I deserves to filled and float with a sadness. I always pretend to be happy infront of the other people but deep inside my heart is covered with sadness. Why is it that when I am happy I think the other people feel bad to me? Is it bad to be happy? I don’t wanna feel this way.
Now I dont know how to move forward with an emotional pain , and feeling extremely hopeless about an uncertain future.