Memories

"Forever I will spend my life with you and nothing will make me back down from it."

With so much conviction she spoke and it made me think and believe that every single word she said was really going to be.

She was older than me with just a year, though that troubled me initially but it really didn't bother her. At some point it started feeling like she loved me at least a hundred times more than I did her.

Funny enough, we once had a peaceful argument about that topic.
"The both of us know that I love you more than you love me." She said.

I smiled. "How do you feel after saying this right now?" I asked sarcastically. "It's not even possible I argued."

And for about forty five minutes we went back and forth on how each of us had shown affection to the other person to prove our love.
Funny enough I won the contest but deep down I knew she had more valid and weighty show of affection. Maybe I won because I was good at hyping both the small and big things.

We met in the strangest of ways. We had exchanged numbers and I even forgot about her because I wasn't the friend making type.
The other person would have to make the first move that would prompt me to now take it up from there.

I attended this church program which she had wanted to attend to. I posted some video clips of my friends and I having a fun moment in church. She saw the video and chatted me up asking how the program went and to catch up on what she missed.

I did her no favour but told her exactly how much she missed. Which was apparently a lot.

From that single message, a friendship started and it blossomed for quite a long time. Before I could even realize what was happening I had already developed feelings for her.

As my pastor normally say, proximity breeds affection. I confirmed this statement to be true.

I really liked her for a lot of reasons and the most important of them is because she was a sacrificial giver. In the first week, when we were still trying to figure out the friendship, she already started buying me things.
It was quite unusual because, in the world we live in, the female gender are the one who always want to be taken care of and be spoiled with gifts.

There are a lot of things I would have done differently to preserve the friendship for longer.

We finally parted ways, I wasn't happy about it but it would have happened sooner or later.

I remembered the words she spoke to me. On a Saturday evening, she had visited and we hung out for a long while. She knew I loved singing, so she insisted we sang together.

It was an amazing experience. I really loved every single time I spent with her that evening.
We discussed about a lot of things including the future.
I told her "a day would come we may even be strangers."

Then she replied, "Forever I will spend my life with you and nothing will make me back down from it."

I was so happy to hear that, I really wanted it to be true. How I wish it was. She was everything and more in what any man would want close to him.

We ended the friendship in good terms. Life just took us in different routes and we met different people. And soon constant chatting with each other seemed like a lot.
I could remember the evening when she mentioned she has met a new guy and he was going to bring her to his big sisters wedding ceremony to also meet his people.

I was both hurt and happy for her. I was happy because it made her happy. I was hurt because I knew what we shared would end. No man would want a guy who shared a strong story with his woman to still be in her life.

And I didn't want to do that to any other man knowing that I would be hurt if it was done to me.

We moved on but the unkept promise was what hurt more than her leaving.
I wasn't going to go in fully but the conviction in which she spoke that evening made me surrender everything in me.

The words she said were the ones the guy was meant to say but in my situation she was the one saying it, coupled with all the show of affection she had exhibited since we became friends.

I promised myself that this experience wouldn't make me doubt promises because I believe that each individual differ.

I won't judge a whole gender because of one mistake from one person.

Selah🙏🙏.