Baking is something that gets into your blood and actually stays there, For me baking was not something to do when I had nothing else to do, I really did loved baking, whenever I got the chance to work with flour, butter, eggs and sugar, I get really really excited, I loved mixing everything and watching it turn into something nice in the oven, the smell of baking that fills the house is just great.
See, then if you had told me to bake at any time I will not complain, I loved baking cakes,small chops and pastries. You can name any baking thing, I was really into it, I enjoyed trying new recipes even when I failed sometimes I would just laugh about my baking failures, when I bake, it makes me feel like I was doing something great and also it makes me proud of myself, I really do enjoy baking alot.
You see Life got in the way, things do not go as planned.. life happened and that is just the way it is. Life has a way of surprising us when we least expected.
I didn't just wake up one day and decide that I wasn't interested in baking anymore, it's just that alot of things , personal things happen, School happened, personal issues happened, responsibilities started piling up one after the other, my schedule became tight, my mind became crowded, and somehow baking slowly moved from something I do often to something I do rarely. It became a less priority.
I would watch baking videos on the internet and would feel sad, sometimes I would walk by a bakery, it would hurt me me cos I had stopped doing something I loved. Even though I felt that way I could not just start baking again. Baking takes a lot of time, like It takes patience, It takes money, It takes the right mindset.
Baking requires alot of things that I really didn't have then and that is more reason for the long pause.
See, I did not forget about baking because I wanted to, I just had to take a step back from the baking.
So i do not think this is a goodbye, It is just a long break , yea, a long one but still a break, i really think I will start baking when some things in my life are better, when my head is clearer, i am more stable, when I have the money to buy the tools I need to make baking easier and more fun. Because it is hard to enjoy something you love when you do not have the things to do it with, Baking is what I love and i will go back to.
I do not want to go to baking when I am stressed, overwhelmed or forcing myself to bake, i want to go to baking when I can really enjoy baking again, when I can bake because I want to bake not because I feel like I have to bake, I want to bake for the fun of baking, for the joy that baking brings to me.
So for now, baking is just resting somewhere in my heart, Quiet, but not dead, and when the time is right, I know I will dust off my apron, wash my bowls, and get back to playing with flour and butter like I used to.
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