How does one derive meaning from this insane world?
If you don't think that we are not looking for meaning then look around.
Look at all the influencers with millions of fans, look at all of the Political pundits acting like they understand what you, the human, is going through.
I'll go first, shall I?
What I'm building today gives me intense joy.
My words have meaning again, even although most people don't understand, and some laugh and jest at me -- the world I am building around me has great meaning.
To me, and soon to others.
My wife brings me meaning, even if she irritates me so. I get up in the morning, 16 years later and still smile and kiss her, happy to see her. Ready to take on what lays ahead.
That has deep meaning.
My Son, young that he is, reminds me a lot of myself at this age, yet understandably a lot not like me either -- where I ran around struggling to be socially accepted around my peers, he cares not.
He likes what he likes and that's all that matters to him.
Building that sort of future for him has brought me great meaning.
Money? Golden thrones? I'll admit, yes, it would be nice to have enough to survive this brutal winter but it's not even secondary on my list.
It is but a faint whisper of something I need to survive.
But derive meaning from it? Nah.
There was a time of course when all I wanted to be was very very rich and worshipped by millions -- something a lot of people aspire to be. To be an influencer, to be seen, to be heard, and have your legacy carry on.
But what is that all when you break it down? It's the need to be seen, to be heard.
To be understood.
We all lack this in some form in life; we all do. As much as I sing the praises of those around me and the people that remain steadfast -- there's still much to be improved on, much to learn, much to see.
My favourite Socrates quote is:
"I am the wisest man alive, for I know one thing, and that is that I know nothing"
Favourite quote of all time. It means the embodiment and the true spirit of the pursuit of knowledge.
Just when you think you know everything something comes along and fucks it all up for you.
No joke.
In my 30's I was always reaching higher levels of awareness thinking I understand, yet here I am now speaking in riddles, adopting poetry, and enjoying symbols.
The stance that I know nothing is way more fitting than I have the slightest clue of what's going on in the world.
And yet in a world that doesn't see and hear -- we all need to be seen somehow
Heard in some form.
That's what people lack.
If people are truly seen and heard then maybe, just maybe, someone will listen just enough to brave it and step out of their comfort zone and give some guidance.
Imagine that, eh?
Thinking about something else other than our own personal gain.
This is no judgement of course -- I was a man borne out of jealousy, hate, and being better. As a young man I wanted to be better than everyone.
Stronger, than the strong man.
Quicker, than the fast man.
More intelligent than the thinker.
And yet, once I found peace -- true peace, none of that mattered.
My own garden was way more important than besting anyone else.
Competition, the struggle, scarcity
It became irrelevant.
Faded off into nothingness.
As it will you, eventually.
