I reinstalled telegram a few days ago and realized I haven't really replied the text of someone who has been texting me from 2023. Then I decided to reply them and let them know I'm not longer active on social media and apologized to them.
After answering them questions about where I've been for 3 years, they kept on bugging and asking me private questions, of which I was not comfortable with answering, I managed to answer to some limit, but they needed details which I was no longer comfortable with sharing.
So they picked up offense, got angry and started talking in some nonchalant tone, then I abandoned the conversation altogether.
I wasn't going to give off private informations to anyone at this point in my life, it's either they respect that privacy or that was the end of the conversation.
I'm not surprised because I've had people like this who are curious as to why I completely disappeared off social media, sometimes I see they truly care and answer their questions, and we catch up on old times.
However, I hold a lot of secret in my life what would have been made public by my social life. However after the death of my only sibling, I made a resolution never to go back to social media.
The life I lived off that place is something I never wanted again, and I guess people who knew me never thought I'd leave the trenches of social media and never return. I don't have that time anymore anyway, bills are much more, inflation eats away at your earning, struggles or hustles.
I attribute this life to the type of government in my country, you need to work away 70% of your life to be able to afford stuffs or life a little bit well, and honestly after keying into that life, I discovered I can no longer do the thing I did when I was 25. I'm I sad? Yes, why?
Apparently I loved living with no sense of responsibility, but that freedom was overly excessive, I lost touch with reality, made mistake one of which I lost my brother as a result of it.
Somehow I've become a much private person, keeping informations to my self and keeping a level head. I don't care about fun or over indulgence anymore, the aim is to pay the bills, make my ways right with God and that's just it.
However most of my past acquaintance do no know about these changes, apparently I try to have healthy conversations when they come with the "I've not heard from you in 3 years" messages, but since I'm no longer that person, it's always hard when some of them get angry at me for not over sharing.
Sometimes I can smell a hookup conversation from afar off. The classic type that sounds"oh I'm sorry this happened to you, I have missed you too much, can you send your address" but these "hooking up" ideas are no longer my way of life.
I try to cover it up with intelligence conversation about business and life, but to some, life's just about fun and hook up, and they get angry when you don't want to go that route anymore.
This latest person didn't like that I didn't want to do the stuffs I did in the past, and more reasons why I became a ghost to 99% of people I once had contact with.
Perhaps, I'll begin with "do you know Jesus loves you" the next time I get a "Hi, where have you been". This life shouldn't be the end, there's an eternity, and sometimes I wonder why we don't have a world of sober and intentional reflections.
