Once I told a friend enthusiastically about how I used to drink coffee with sugar, but now I drink exclusively without it.
With the help of long monologues with yourself, everything superfluous is gradually leaving your life and only the necessary and clean remains, without impurities and unnecessary garbage. Occam's eternal razor and all that ...
And then I started drinking coffee with sugar again. And then - then with sugar, then without without it.
And then I realized more about life than the first time.
No need to try to understand life and its mechanisms. You just need to live.