My dream lovestory

I can't stop laughing while I write this post. Let me tell you the funniest dream I had last night. At least the part I can still remember. After this I will try to analyise it, Freud style😂😂🤔

The reason why I smile is because the dream included me and a not known random guy face. Something which appeared maybe on Google searches and my brain encoded into "possible male partner face files" and stored it into a forgotten corner of my mind📂😂 So the conversation between me and him is what triggered my delicious laughter after I woke up and vividly remembered the dream:

Him: I will come in one month here for you, I am so sure
Me: There is a long way from Venezuela to here. Are you sure you can't mind your bussiness and not waste time? (omg a potential partner and a love story with a guy from freaking Venezuela? Brain, you impress me. I never thought I'll go international on this)
Him: It is worth it. Don't worry about me, I know what I am doing
Me: I know I am in top 5% of the coolest women on Earth you could find, but I have to tell you I value my time. Every minute counts, I won't waste my time if this is not going how I want(oh come on, such a typical Aquarius answer full of confidence and already analysing 1000 potential ways of how to protect the emotional vault and not get hurt even before the whole thing got started. Top 5% hahahhahaha. That's a good line, I am going to use it in real life. My brains knows stuff😂😂💯😎)
He sat in silence. Looking deeply into my eyes and gave me the most calm and kind smile in the world.
Him: I am so so sure my dear😊

End

Oh my oh my. Where should I begin?

I think the dream expresses something which me, as a typical Aquarius, supresses often because I am sometimes too proud to admit: the need for love. This Joan of Arc side of me gets activated after heartbreaks and puts herself on her horse and says "I can live alone, I don't need a man, screw them all😂" In fact, this is one of the things which I trully value and I long for: a sincere meaningful connection with someone...

Venezuela? Pfew I will give an award for someone explaining that. I never had anything to do with that country and never even dreamed to go there. Buuut....Yesterday I attended to a classic music concert and listened some Astor Piazzolla... And.... I did review a book where the author was married to a brazilian guy and had to go with him for a year and live there because the immigration office made them troubles for Visa. Practically, the author valued their love story so much that she was willing to go abroad and not let separation intervene. And I do have a history of long distance relationships which all failed and burned to flames. So I guess this dream is a way of my brain to gain a victory in love in the long distance Venezulean story, to compensate for all the fails in real life. Awww my brain feels for me and knows how shitty long distance relationships can be. Now I completely dismiss such a thing, it is not for me. I will have to do some searching in my city or that guy to come to me. Thanks brain, but no way I am doing that anymore⚠️ I also think that having again a long distance love story dream can show that, deep inside, I would have wished that at least one of those smart pants to be man enough and have enough confidence in their ability to make something out of their life and change the city. Deep inside I would have hoped for one of them to actually move and value love beyond a job and random friends. Deep inside I would have wished for some men to be real men, powerful, confident, not scared of making changes. Deep inside I would have wanted them to move for themselves, for changing their life and wanting to achieve better, not solely for me. Now I see that some are never prepared for changes and lack confidence. And that some feel better just the way they are and there is no point in me fighting to change that. And it is better for my mind to not blame them for their lack of self confidence and move on. I now actually feel compassion seeing how sad it must be for a guy to be so afraid and to get stucked in the same place because there is not enough inner strenght to desire more from life. I am at peace knowing they did not know better and their problem was with themselves, not with me.

I am so so sure My brain knows the kind of man I want and how will I behave to test his power of will. Oh yeah put some pressure, test his endurance, his motivations, his reasons. Most women are secretely holding a "Top Tester" certificate from the Academy Of Do Not Hurt Me. I am in the top 5%, what can you expect? 😂😂. I think this shows my desire to have a partner who has a lot of self confidence, drive, ambition, who keeps promises and who knows what they want. Just like I am. I value ambition and decisiveness. I do not like people who often change their mind, who say stuff just to impress or who talk bad about other people behind their back or use them to get ahead. If you say it you better mean it, or else I have no time to waste. Rough Joan of Arc😂

Ah I still smile. My brain you are so awesome I would kiss and hug you. Venezulean guy finally coming for me... Top 5%....What more can you wish from life🔝😎😂

Have a spectacular day and toodle loo!

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