Time and the displacement it creates: a three dimensional texturized pattern. For some, a bit few or a bit many, a shift towards something new. Sometimes the stillness is haunting, and often complexity is what you desire, but it takes a sheer amount of relentless work. It happened that I stopped for a while and there was no prior thinking of whether I am leaving, or if it's just a halt. In a kind where you don't focus on change you make to fit in, and at some point you lose the strength to live at all. A month for me, not much in this clustered continuity, as the new year started just now and we see where we are now. Although it helped me write better, this grind of collecting hive, and spamming meaningless garbage, it felt as though I was prompted to and not what it started with. Although I cannot be that much salty granted it was the platform that made me do what I wanted to do: write. The problem wasn't the hive or its structure, but the internal struggle of whether I want to write just for the sake of it.
You have to find a balance. I'm sure some of you had to. In the break, I used to login to Hive to see what was happening. Although there is not much interaction with people in my posts, and for the most part it is true, the domain of being seen and sharing your thoughts and writing for the sake that it helps me mentally was a time I got to dedicate to write. If not for Hive, it would not have happened. Although that can be for anything social media, I do not do that, so for Hive it is my social media, and it has improved me in the sense of crafting, telling stories and front lies.
The key thing for me: thinking I am creating and to be seen are two different things. I misconstrued them heavily. I wanted to write what I want, the shell of selfishness, and at the same time I wanted to be fulfilled by the engagement. There is nothing like that. I have not built a community of readers who want to read for me, so I have to nudge myself into doing other things as well.
I have been trying to be consistent lately, but let's see how it goes. It's a devil's curse that I can be neither here nor there.
Thank you all for reading, and have a great day.
HSCP—WK44 NEW PROMPT: EVER WANTED TO QUIT HIVE?
