I was going to work one morning when I had an encounter. I have forgotten what really happened, but I remember I was so pissed that morning, so much so that I prayed quietly for God to answer my prayers. The thing is, it is my dream to make enough money and just relocate to a secluded island or a forested area where it will be just my mansion miles away. I know I have big dreams, and honestly, it scares me sometimes, most especially when I think about it.
Often I do laugh at myself, especially when I imagine being at my balcony and just looking at a vast land of nothingness, just nature showing off in all its greenery. Really, nature is therapeutic: the flowing river and the breath of fresh air. Personally my most cherished moments are ones spent with family or alone in nature.
So if I am to chose a dwelling place, best believe that urban areas will be far from my options especially given that it is crawling with people that I am trying to avoid. Don’t get me wrong, it’s not like I hate people or anything, but then it gets really frustrating not being on an equal level of understanding or reasoning. You see people do things and just be like, 'Naaa, there is no way the same God created me and this person.'
I remember a while ago I had a fallout with my neighbour. The issue was somehow that I couldn’t even fathom. I mean, how is spending money on one’s basic needs a problem? I live with people whose basic needs are seen as a burden. They would forcefully pay for their utility bills and then look for ways to pick fights or quarrels with me because I'm always the one pushing for their bills to be paid.
In fact, just recently I was informed we would now be paying our security bill individually, as one neighbour already opted out, cutting himself off from the rest of us neighbours. While we tried to battle that, there is another neighbour who feels the money he's paying for electricity is too much and would rather pay it in bits. Really, dealing with humans is exhausting, and it's even more exhausting because they are all adults who ought to know better.
Basically every time that I step out of my house or I have an encounter with another human being who has a different background from me, I am immediately reminded how much I want to be away from people and all the chaos in the world. But of course if wishes were horses, beggars would ride, right? Well, somehow I do believe in miracles lol.
You know, when I see people with hundreds of billions, I often wonder, 'How do people make this money?' and then I would question, 'What do I have to do to get on like them?' But then there is life grouping us in different categories and classes.
Well, thinking about and discussing what area I would want to live in; I’d say that my dream home is not just anywhere; it's a place where I want to feel safe. Where I get to be around people who just make life easy and plan well with me which in this case would be my family and likemind friends.
And even if we would have disagreements here and there, it should be something reasonable and not be on flimsy issues that we could settle by just talking like reasonable adults.
