Haven't been on Hive, been busy. See price tanks, feel nothing. See the same old political landscape, nothing changes. Just have some relief that people I know still post in this place.
I'll be rambling about the snippets that has been happening while I'm offline. This place gets lets me become self absorbed for a few moments +upvotes so let me live.
I'm currently seeing medicolegal cases. You know, the ones that require me to appear in court and testify as an expert witness and some forensic psychiatry stuff. It's its own headache to deal with some of the cases since you get to hear about the worst acts other humans can do to others and sometimes I get to interview the perpetrators doing it too.
Stalkers
Had some patients messaging me on my personal account for follow ups about their cases and etc. Although I did have fault how it happens since my profile is "Public", yeah, I set my profile to public for variety of reasons since this line of work will eventually get me more public eyes in the future. I cleansed some of my old shitposts prior but not all of the stupid shit just so I don't seem too clean. I'm still not sharing my profile here though. The contradictions of this move ikr? anyway, explaining it further gets me to ramble.
So back to the stalking thing, some people can't take a no and need boundary seminars and I can't just say fuck off and block. The nature of the people I deal with in the clinics can have some degree of unpredictability to them like being punched unprovoked just cause the voices told them to or just for impulsive reasons. Some are psychotic that they incorporate their doctor's identity to their delusions and make an entire social media rant about them, happened to my colleague and not me.
The down side about trying to get any legal help is that the end point is a slap on the wrist cause you know some of the people responsible for doing this are psychotic and needs meds. I wouldn't be surprised if I get those at some point in my career, it sometimes becomes a checklist for seniority in the field but it's not a pleasant experience.
Mentorship and Life Coach
Got myself a mentor because it's required by the training program I'm in. She gave me an assignment like writing a personal social history of my life to help me reflect and reexamine things.
Having the realization that I may have ADHD makes total sense and it if were true, not sure how it would change anything other than a label. There's a lot of research on it but I've been self medicating with Caffeine to the point I'm having Caffeine Use Disorder, it's a thing where I need to get my head more stimulants just to function like a responsible adult. I just you read about how stimulants help people with ADHD because it's a fun read. That being the case, I don't want to make a self diagnosis of such because I'm no different from the people that google their diagnosis, instead I'll try to get this stuff sorted out with some professional help.
There's no flex or badge worth bragging about it unlike how social media tends to popularize the disorder. If I do have it, well that explains some stuff about how I've been doing things and maybe get some help about it. If I don't get some help about it, then there's no difference to the way things have been going for me since I've been high functioning enough to look normal. It doesn't cause me problems other than a problematic caffeine intake and the health issues that come along with it.
The Art
I've been stockpiling some art materials and scribbles but not really putting in the effort "make art" like I used to. Probably something to my ADHD brain or just procrastinating. But I'm busy with other stuff at work. I'll get to this, I have to try more~
Thanks for your time.
